30.7.09
i don't know what i am doing
neither do i know what i want.
all i can say to you is that i'm sorry i not what you want me to be.
never was and might never be.
times have changed, situations have too
but most importantly the feelings arn't the same.
its not that theres nothing.
its just that theres not THAT MUCH.
i know it hurts you. i know i hurt you.
yet, i can't help myself.
its not your fault,
its just mine.
heart and mind are going different ways.
its time to tell you,
that i've been guilty all this while
and i think i can't take it much longer.
its totally not my call nor my say.
its been that way since that day..
now its up to you to decide if you still can linger on.
as i'm afraid i might be once again, gone.
once is enough for you. no twice.
i don't want it to be that way either.
i'm afraid. i just can't seem to take a step forward.
just cus i did it to you, you might do the same.
i've got no confidence, i can't commit.
treating you this way has no merits.
i don't want to do it anylonger.
make a choice, i can't make mine.
now i'm stuck. do you see why?
all the feelings you've given to me, i just can't repay...
by Hannah 12:32 AM
