22.1.07
As what I have repeatedly said, life sucks.
This is the result of not reading the bible and having a moral and spiritual relationship with God.
I'm tired of all the bitching I've been involved in and all I've heard.
I'm tired of all the office politics even though I joined the company merely 2 short months ago.
I'm tired of hearing of people telling me all the bad points of my boyfriend.
I'm tired of my sister being such an ass.
I want to help her but it dosen't seem to be working.
Jiun's been feeling lonely and left out. I can't bear to see him this way.
I try to make it up to him by being with him as much as I'm able to.
Sometimes, i feel empty inside too.
I totally understand how he feels.
Even when around friends, we still do feel lonely and empty.
We are very similar in this way.
When people look at me from the outside, i may seem happy and gay.
What is inside, do they know?
Sometimes* I just feel like staying at home, lying in bed, infront of the tv.
Then I will stay there with my flat butt stuck to the spreads,
under the covers of the warm blanket.
In anycase, this is just a wish. Not really waiting to be fufilled.
As my friends know, I'm not the kind of that can keep still.
Not really a girly kind of girl but a girl that wants to be independent.
A girl who wants to go out to the world and have the freedom to acheive what she wants to do.
A girl who loves to be in the centre of attention, who likes to get her own way.
Too bad life's not that way.
This is a stage in my life I have to go through and I will go through it with courage.
With the help of my God, I'll be able to go through any obstacles.
With him, I'll never be alone. With him, I'm able to do anything!
by Hannah 8:31 PM
